I know, its been a while! First of all – Hi there beautiful soul!
Though I had originally planned to take off 4 months after my daughter Aria was born, I decided to take some additional time to heal, take good care of myself and just be a present mama. As we all know by now, life doesn’t always go according to our perfect plan!
Some of you know that my post-partum experience included a few challenging surprises. I needed to have an emergency D &C surgery about 8 weeks after Aria was born. This led to extra healing both physically, mentally and emotionally. Honestly, it was one of the most traumatic and overwhelming experiences of my life.
During those first few weeks of confusion, overwhelm and “why me” mentality, I received the most beautiful reminder. I was reading Gabby Bernstein’s, The Universe Has Your Back (which is on a special sale right now for $.99) and came across a prayer she uses. It was a guiding light for me and I’d love to share it.
“Thank You Universe for helping me see this obstacle as an opportunity, I will step back and let you lead the way.”
As I found myself struggling to surrender to the fact that things didn’t go according to plan and accept that new challenges lay ahead. I realized that on a deeper level, everything happens for a reason- for my own spiritual growth and expansion.
Don’t get me wrong, it sucked, like a MF ; ) I was in pain physically and emotionally which led to some very dark nights. In those moments (we have all had them) there was a sense of disconnection, frustration and deep sadness.
We can’t feel it at the time, but there is also an awakening that comes through feeling your feelings so fully. I didn’t have the usual energy to make sense of everything and so I allowed myself to feel it all without analyzing it and without repressing it or numbing myself. If you trust that you are safe enough to feel it or receive the support needed to something magical happens.
I knew there was nothing I could do but SURRENDER and lean into my belief that though it was painful, it was also an OPPORTUNITY to grow and learn more about myself. It was in shifting my perspective that things began to change. That doesn’t mean it disappeared overnight nor did I get the clear answers I wanted right away. But once I decided to see it as good rather than bad, guidance came my way.
Spiritually, I realized that my own strength, divine connection and worth on a deeper scale. In a sense, I feel that I am more myself now than I have ever been.
My levels of self-care and self-love deepened and I could truly connect with what my intuition was telling me. These terms mean a lot more than taking time to rest or having a candle lit bath.
They showed up as truly putting myself first by honoring where I was at and finding the beat of my own drum. In other words, I cut out a lot of the bullshit that used to keep me stuck. In the past I might have choose the safety of old habits and fears.
They were what I had always known but I knew I was ok, I was safe to feel the fears. As a result, I received peace and discovered a truer path for myself.
Without my faith that everything was happening for a reason and that each challenge is an opportunity for growth I wouldn’t have made it through to this empowered and positive place. I know now, that these challenges were the best thing that ever happened to me because it led to growth and has allowed me to remember who I really am.
I believe many of you can relate to this. No matter where you are at right now and what challenges lay ahead, I want you to know that I love you, you are safe, you are worthy and you will get through it.
If you can accept where you are at and trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be guidance will come your way.
You might learn that every obstacle you encounter is a gift helping you to remember your own strength, capability and worth.
P.S. I found a book that explained what was happening with my hormonal health. It gave me the knowledge about my physical symptoms that I needed to make positive changes. I learned that our diets and stress level impact the natural balance of hormones in our bodies. Millions of American women struggle with thyroid issues which means that imbalance is quickly becoming the norm.
If you have been diagnosed with Hashimotos or any thyroid dysfunction check out this book, The Adrenal Thyroid Revolution by Aviva Romm.